October 4th, 2007
|07:17 am - near death experience update|
I received word on my truck just now. The call startled me out of my sleep : P But, at least it was good news. The damage isn't overly serious and is quite fixable. *kisses my mechanic*
And as much as possible I'm hale and hearty also. Sore...but that's to be expected..yeah?
life can't ditch me so easily...I'm around to survive another day
I can definitely live with that concept.
Current Mood: relieved
Current Music: Fidelity - Regina Spektor
October 2nd, 2007
|11:28 pm - fuuuuuuuuuuck!|
nearly flippin' died tonight
man....I'm so lucky in life. it. ain't. even. funny.
Current Location: finally safely home
Current Mood: shaken
June 30th, 2007
Thanks goodness we've finally made it to 'Gala Opening Weekend'. Now I can just spend all weekend nodding, shaking hands, and being generally polite. And performing of course. All of it's still tense and exhausting since it's all packed back to back. But it's a step up from having laryngitis all week from screaming matches with me acting as intermediary between various groups of egotistical strong-willed stressed out high-maintenance idiots. Idiots that are my friends. But idiots none the less. I think the stress has just gotten to everyone.
Anyway...wish me luck. I'll be spending the weekend in formal attire. When I'd really rather be in cut-offs and a t-shirt lying on my roof looking for falling stars. No, that's not right either. I really do love my job. And dressing up isn't so bad. I clean up well when I put my mind to it ; P I think I'm just have a case of opening-season jitters just like everyone. Mine just came last minute.
I probably won't be on much for the rest of the summer. I'll be busy with the season, as well as my side ventures. Not that it matters. I think only Rui reads this journal, and I see him every day anyway.
So...ttfn...I'm of to be charming and brilliant.
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Dashboard - Modest Mouse
June 6th, 2007
I had to take a short trip to Italy last week to escort one of the new assistant directors to his new summer home. I shouldn't complain because I got to see Siena. And I adore it there. The trip was just so fast it was exhausting. I slept for 16 hours the day I got home and I'm still tired. And I had to be 'on' and polite..and..charming the whole time. When actually I didn't really want to be gone at all. Surely there were other multilingual witty violin players in the symphony that could have gone in my stead.
The only way I survived was by taking one of Escuro's favorite shirts along with me. It smells like him. I slept in it. I inhaled it when I missed him. I held it. How cheesy is that? If it (the 'it' being the shirt) hadn't literally gotten me through the trip, I'd be kicking myself at how pathetic I've become. As it is though, it saved me. That shirt..and a bike ride I managed to sneak in. A beautiful bike ride that cleared my head nearly to the point of a 'spiritual experience'.
Now I guess he knows where he shirt is : P
And..the new assistant director...he isn't a bad guy. Nice even. I'm sure we'll be quick friends. It's just...I didn't want to be away.
Current Location: on my laptop at work
Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: rehearsals in the background
May 23rd, 2007
|12:22 am - Happy Nearly-Belated-Almost-Missed Mesmerism Day !|
yep...the world could have been mine today
good thing I'm a good and humble person ; )
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: some wacky bw movie on the telly
May 21st, 2007
( DNA in-depthCollapse )
Off to sleep a few hours. Then start my day, Practice etc.. Last night was grueling in its tediousness. Even though it was a 'reconnaissance' task, I still only kept one eye it. The rest of my attention went to diddling on my laptop. Sorting my music files. Searching the internet for
smexy-porn frivolous things ( ^_^ ). Playing mahjong. One of the things I found was my DNA model. It's surprisingly accurate. Especially since I only was required to pick a few random images. Weird
Current Music: Green Eyes - Husker Du
May 12th, 2007
|08:57 pm - wow!|
Apparently the gap between the symphony/opera worlds and the rock worlds are growing closer. Maybe I won't miss the rowdiness of touring after all. Do you think it will be a nationwide phenomena? : p
okay...and isn't wasn't a straight symphony performance..but..heh...still...
Brawl at Boston Pops
Witnesses said they heard a scream from the balcony, and the sound of chairs falling, then a second scream as the fight escalated.
the different factions of my life are growing shockingly similar and close
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Mushaboom - Feist
May 3rd, 2007
|02:08 pm - I'm home!|
I'm home! I'm happy. Not happy....more like elated and bursting at the seams.
*kisses my front yard*
Current Location: HOME!!!!
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Learning to Fly - Tom Petty
April 27th, 2007
|09:01 am - friday never hesitates|
When I awoke this morning I was dreaming that Rui and I were grocery shopping. Not exciting. Not devastatingly dangerous. It wasn't an epiphany. But it was very sexy. It was sexy because we just...'were'...floating...in-the-moment...together.
Just a few more days and I'll be home. I'm so excited my heart raced constantly all day yesterday.
Then I'll have to switch from 'rock and roll' mode, to symphony mode. Which won't be hard. I just have to get home and practice the summer pieces a little more. I just need to plan my time around welcome distractions like grocery shopping.
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Friday I'm In Love - The Cure
April 19th, 2007
I was antsy...so went for a walk to clear my head. It didn't do much good.
If anything now I'm still antsy, and now also frustrated. I hate days when we've traveled so we don't have a booking. I have no where to put all of my energy. Well..that's not really true. But I do have little blocks of time like today where I'm just idling. I hate idling. It makes me feel angsty and gives me too much time to think. I grew up with people who loved self-induced angst. For that reason alone I avoid it at all cost. Plus I just hate to be down or moody when I could be happy instead.
But today I couldn't help myself.
I had too much time and I let my mind wander. I let it wander to how beautiful the day was. And then I wondered why I couldn't have this day but be doing something else. Then poof..I'd made myself wistful...
I hadn't meant too. I was walking barefoot in the sunshine. The grass was slightly damp so mud that was peeking through new baby grass gooshed between my toes. There was a breeze so light it could hardly be called a breeze at all. Then it would pick up and gust strong enough to blow dandelion seedlings through the air across my path. The air smelled heavy and wet. But also sweet and spicy from nearby flowers. Then it hit me..at that point all I could imagine was lying down in the warm damp grass and kissing the afternoon away. Then I was sad. Denied. Left without.
I'm an idiot. That fast...happy ---------->sad.
I hoped a walk would center me. Wear me out. But now I'm just more hyped. I suppose I should go find something constructive to do.
Current Music: 1000 Miles from Nowhere - Dwight Yoakam